Back up

Got my computer cleaned and reformatted.

Wasn't just my computer that crashed this week.

Had a similar emotional crash the last few days. Typical effects: some social anxiety--not good to have at art museum in case your wondering--plus low self-esteem, headaches, numbness in the extremities. Not pretty.

Though I'm blessed to have a really good woman. Her love gives me strength. Thanks to her I'm better.

The computer crash, some money issues around school (loans), and searching for a part-time job are the proximate causes of this latest round. But they are just triggering the underlying issues.

Even as I work towards clearing those immediate needs up--the job is the only one left--the deeper bugs remain.